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[ Maybe he'll notice it eventually. It's like when Dokja had to dance around the idea of having feelings towards him the first time. ]
Some have. [ Dokja relaxing..... hehe. ] I never knew how much gossip and reacting they would do here until we watched over the town hall meeting in new Eden.
[ Ah, did he say this yet? ] When I woke up here, it was already after Execution on Sunday.
Some have. [ Dokja relaxing..... hehe. ] I never knew how much gossip and reacting they would do here until we watched over the town hall meeting in new Eden.
[ Ah, did he say this yet? ] When I woke up here, it was already after Execution on Sunday.
Why not?
[ His hands buried into Niah's fur trembles lightly even if he doesn't realize it yet. ]
I didn't want to consider Reze dying. Or possibly Akira, or even... [ You. ]
...I was selfish. [ That he knows. He was very selfish. Choosing to die so he did not see any of his loved ones die instead. Sacrificing himself in hopes that they did not. ]
[ His hands buried into Niah's fur trembles lightly even if he doesn't realize it yet. ]
I didn't want to consider Reze dying. Or possibly Akira, or even... [ You. ]
...I was selfish. [ That he knows. He was very selfish. Choosing to die so he did not see any of his loved ones die instead. Sacrificing himself in hopes that they did not. ]
... That's good.
[ And he supposes Dokja kissing him again... is good? He doesn't say anything and it doesn't show on his face, but he is quite pleased and content, though he wonders if he should indulge in it when so many things are happening. There's so much for him to do.
But these small little outings are his solace and rest, aren't they? He comes closer, pressing closer it only a bit. It's more so their heads touch, close enough. ]
I thought to take a nap, but we can watch a couple of shows here. It's rare to have television?
[ And he supposes Dokja kissing him again... is good? He doesn't say anything and it doesn't show on his face, but he is quite pleased and content, though he wonders if he should indulge in it when so many things are happening. There's so much for him to do.
But these small little outings are his solace and rest, aren't they? He comes closer, pressing closer it only a bit. It's more so their heads touch, close enough. ]
I thought to take a nap, but we can watch a couple of shows here. It's rare to have television?
... You say that, but I also know you threw yourself away because you think it's easy.
[ As if Dokja was trash that could be left behind, never written in this story's ending. As if he didn't deserve to be here... As if he was only an onlooker doing his best to write them something happy.
Joonghyuk doesn't like it. The grip on his forearm clenches a bit tighter. ]
If you think you are disposable, you aren't, Kim Dokja. You...
[ You mean something. At least to him. ]
[ As if Dokja was trash that could be left behind, never written in this story's ending. As if he didn't deserve to be here... As if he was only an onlooker doing his best to write them something happy.
Joonghyuk doesn't like it. The grip on his forearm clenches a bit tighter. ]
If you think you are disposable, you aren't, Kim Dokja. You...
[ You mean something. At least to him. ]
[ Mostly everyone has gone home, or went home with another, and then there are a few left behind. Two of them are these gay assholes who are just looking at the cards they passed out at booths. Joonghyuk still looks at the one that was given to him, contemplative...
He also thinks about Rex's reaction to the booth—to not want a defined ending. It's an interesting prospect he never considered. He had always wanted an ending. He always wanted to know... After so many years of living, he wanted to know that he did all he could. That it was enough.
It is just them, two who have known each other for so long, and yet their windows are different. Their worlds are different, separated by time itself. ]
... Are you ready to go back?
He also thinks about Rex's reaction to the booth—to not want a defined ending. It's an interesting prospect he never considered. He had always wanted an ending. He always wanted to know... After so many years of living, he wanted to know that he did all he could. That it was enough.
It is just them, two who have known each other for so long, and yet their windows are different. Their worlds are different, separated by time itself. ]
... Are you ready to go back?
[ With Joonghyhuk coming closer, Dokja will slip his arms around him as their heads touch and they're pressed together. It's warm. It's comforting. He can actually feel like he's relaxing.
Tomorrow... is another day. Tomorrow night... will be something else. He wants to focus on here, the sound of their quiet breathing and the distant feeling of his hearts beating. ]
There will always be time to watch some shows. We can nap together? [ Well, assuming Dokja can actually fall asleep, but he won't complain if it means he can stay with Joonghyuk like this just a bit longer. ]
Tomorrow... is another day. Tomorrow night... will be something else. He wants to focus on here, the sound of their quiet breathing and the distant feeling of his hearts beating. ]
There will always be time to watch some shows. We can nap together? [ Well, assuming Dokja can actually fall asleep, but he won't complain if it means he can stay with Joonghyuk like this just a bit longer. ]
[ There is no response. Even after everything, Dokja does not truly value himself as highly as others do. An awful thing. But Kim Dokja is an awful person after all.
The amount of time he has been told that he is disposable is so much greater though. From his father, to even the relatives tasked to looking after him, to the bullies throughout all of his school years...
He's afraid to meet that gaze straight on but he does, lips pressed together yet the expression he gives is... helpless. That emptiness is a painful reminder. ]
The amount of time he has been told that he is disposable is so much greater though. From his father, to even the relatives tasked to looking after him, to the bullies throughout all of his school years...
He's afraid to meet that gaze straight on but he does, lips pressed together yet the expression he gives is... helpless. That emptiness is a painful reminder. ]
... Not yet.
[ Though Dokja has looked at the various cards, he's mostly looking out now. His gaze looks out to the various windows that have yet to close, which welcome a new time and world to experience. The reader knows what to expect when he returns back.
That train.
That confrontation of the Most Ancient Dream concluding.
However, here he still stays for now. Jin, as tall and confident as the slim pure white gumiho stands, seems to lower herself as she gives a full body nuzzle against Niah. As if she is as small as her previous arctic fox form was. ]
I will be. [ But, not yet. Finally, he looks to Joonghyuk, a smile resting on his own lips. ]
[ Though Dokja has looked at the various cards, he's mostly looking out now. His gaze looks out to the various windows that have yet to close, which welcome a new time and world to experience. The reader knows what to expect when he returns back.
That train.
That confrontation of the Most Ancient Dream concluding.
However, here he still stays for now. Jin, as tall and confident as the slim pure white gumiho stands, seems to lower herself as she gives a full body nuzzle against Niah. As if she is as small as her previous arctic fox form was. ]
I will be. [ But, not yet. Finally, he looks to Joonghyuk, a smile resting on his own lips. ]
[ At that, Dokja laughs quietly. ]
I didn't get to see it, but I heard of it. Given the concerns regarding Reze. [ ... ] Rochalizo said what you did was just like you, after I had told him that you only wanted to hear Reze say she wanted to live.
[ It seems like once it was said, everyone was able to better understand Yoo Joonghyuk as a person. Carefully, almost featherlight, does he lean a little against Joonghyuk. ]
I'm sure it was a big mess nevertheless.
I didn't get to see it, but I heard of it. Given the concerns regarding Reze. [ ... ] Rochalizo said what you did was just like you, after I had told him that you only wanted to hear Reze say she wanted to live.
[ It seems like once it was said, everyone was able to better understand Yoo Joonghyuk as a person. Carefully, almost featherlight, does he lean a little against Joonghyuk. ]
I'm sure it was a big mess nevertheless.
Edited (pika) 2021-11-22 02:19 (UTC)
[ Niah allows, though he nuzzles back, more than usual, because this parting is one Joonghyuk doesn't want to make... However, it is what they must do if they want to meet again, if the stars aligned and the universe let them. ]
You won't be alone.
[ He has Jin, but also the rest of them will be there for him, throughout all of it. ]
You won't be alone.
[ He has Jin, but also the rest of them will be there for him, throughout all of it. ]
[ Oh, he's really trying to avoid answering this question, huh? This is really funny and he's super curious. Dokja doesn't give him any more space- he's staying right here. ]
What's wrong with asking how you imagine a date? If you'd rather show it instead, I'll let you decide what we do tomorrow then.
What's wrong with asking how you imagine a date? If you'd rather show it instead, I'll let you decide what we do tomorrow then.
[ ... He's frustrated beyond believe to see Dokja like this. To see that the man who's usually so confident to be reduced to this—maybe he's frustrated because he's hurt. He isn't sure what he can do.
What can you ever do when someone looks, feels helpless? Grabbing his shoulder, avoiding Niah, he forces him to look up. ]
... Look at me.
What can you ever do when someone looks, feels helpless? Grabbing his shoulder, avoiding Niah, he forces him to look up. ]
... Look at me.
[ Jin will curl around Niah afterward, still nuzzling with him but seems to have no plans of moving from this spot anytime soon. Especially as her numerous tails curl around the larger wolf to blanket him. ]
Neither will you.
[ As much as he reassures the reader, Dokja reassures him in turn. He has Niah, he was the rest of the group to join with their regression. To continue with their plans and... he hopes that they are successful. He hopes they drag him from that unreachable place. Everything that has happened here has no been for naught. Even now, with their powers returned, a new fable is in the making. A curious and wide-eyed little thing but a fable nevertheless. A fable that will speak of their bonds here and everything they've gone through. All the hardships included.
There's hardly a moment of hesitation as he reaches out and brings Joonghyuk closer to him. A soft, lingering kiss resting on those lips that almost takes his own breath away.
The fable, Life and Death Companions, starts to sing softly. ]
Let's meet again, Joonghyuk.
[ In a time with a better end for them both. ]
Neither will you.
[ As much as he reassures the reader, Dokja reassures him in turn. He has Niah, he was the rest of the group to join with their regression. To continue with their plans and... he hopes that they are successful. He hopes they drag him from that unreachable place. Everything that has happened here has no been for naught. Even now, with their powers returned, a new fable is in the making. A curious and wide-eyed little thing but a fable nevertheless. A fable that will speak of their bonds here and everything they've gone through. All the hardships included.
There's hardly a moment of hesitation as he reaches out and brings Joonghyuk closer to him. A soft, lingering kiss resting on those lips that almost takes his own breath away.
The fable, Life and Death Companions, starts to sing softly. ]
Let's meet again, Joonghyuk.
[ In a time with a better end for them both. ]
[ There's that moment of hesitation, head turning away despite the touch and the weight. However, he resigns quickly enough, emitting a sigh and then finally doing as he asks.
Even though his lips are dipping into a frown, brows knitting together, he still looks at Joonghyuk. He can at least do that much after everything, right? All that he's put his companion through. He ignores that dreadful feeling and faces him properly now. ]
Even though his lips are dipping into a frown, brows knitting together, he still looks at Joonghyuk. He can at least do that much after everything, right? All that he's put his companion through. He ignores that dreadful feeling and faces him properly now. ]
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