[ Hmmm. He'll reach out to pat Joonghyuk, but mostly to pull his head towards him so they can gingerly knock heads. this is a mistake because Dokja winces for a moment, hissing. ] Damn, that still hurts.

[ he sighs after, letting them just sit here for a moment. dissociation episode yjh will you even notice that Dokja just freshly showered? he smells so nice. nevermind that he coughs up some emerald-colored flowers just now. ]

You probably blame me for disappearing again. But I really didn't have any control over it, so don't hit me when you feel more like yourself again, alright? [ it's like talking to a wall, almost. how he expects no response from his companion, not while he's like this. so, he just continues. maybe it's better if he imagines he's just talking out loud. ] I woke up not long after everyone else went to sleep, I thought maybe I'd get to explore but something knocked me out.

..I had a dream. I was sitting in front of a computer, and when I could register the words on the screen.. I knew it was a new chapter of Ways of Survival that had been published. But that story already finished, I already had my End. So it felt surreal. Even if it was right there in front of my eyes.

[ he glances over to Joonghyuk, for any sign or reaction. or maybe he's just letting the words register- whether for him or himself is hard to say. ]