[ That comforting weight against his head probably just kept him spilling more than he intended. He's just, quietly looking off to the side away from Joonghyuk. ]
Just. Small things. [ Are they actually small though. Jin brings one of her paws to place over her own face as if embarrassed. Oof. ]
[ Joonghyuk is quiet and sees that Dokja is actually embarrassed. Which is strange. He has never seen Dokja embarrassed. Maybe shy and nervous, but not embarrassed? ]
... Does my left eyebrow really twitch?
[ Curious, but also giving Dokja a convenient exit out. ]
[ He's quiet, thinking for a moment. Wouldn't that just mean that Kim Dokja notices and no one else? Joonghyuk isn't sure what of make of it, aside from observation. They've done that, too, didn't they? ]
[ Admittedly, he's surprised by the sudden nuzzle, he sees it time to time from their daemons but... that's their daemons. To feel it from Joonghyuk himself. He can't help but tilt his head just a bit into it.
It is not a side he expects from his companion so he's a bit mesmerized to see it. It's strange. That must be why his heart races just a bit. Right? Right. help ]
[ He’s still close, at this point just leaning in to rest like this. Despite the comfort in physical contact, he does say this with a tone that indicates he wants to harm him. ]
You also smile a certain self-deprecating smile when you concoct plans.
[ Having tilted his head, being this close with their foreheads together really makes him think he's moments from being hit with a tone like that. Now his heart is racing in a different manner. scwary.]
And they [ the other members of the company ] told you that too?
[ His gaze drops, brows knitting a little. Guess who is mumbling now, along the lines of "I hadn't realized..." Not that it matters since they're still so close to another.
Jin still seems pleased by everything as her tail wags away- accidentally gently smacking Niah's cheek with it. Fox too hard to control. ]
[ It really doesn't matter when they're this close. It's a big strange because they're standing, but Joonghyuk isn't... Sure if they should sit somewhere and continue. Whatever this is? He is usually very sure of himself, even with choices that have him gruel over picking one over the other.
This is strange. ]
You are not the only one reading. We were reading you, too. Especially when you were gone.
[ That was when they would think back on the stories they all shared together because that was all they had left of Kim Dokja. ]
[ Without thinking, Dokja turns to face his companion more, bringing hands to cup Joonghyuk's cheeks. It's just... a feeling of wanting more. It's not a feeling he's used to. Sure, patting the kids, getting hugs from them... they were nice. He hadn't grown up with such affections, a thought comes up in the back of his mind.
But now? It's like it's only dawning in him and he's actually letting himself indulge in a little bit with this opportunity. Though, that he's sure must because of the effects of it. He probably wouldn't be doing this otherwise.(Someone like Dokja, he didn't deserve it.) He keeps his gaze steady on the man's face. ]
[ Hello? Why are you cupping his cheeks? The only one that does this to him is his younger sister... He doesn't try to strangle Dokja immediately, but he is glaring at him while his face is being held like some chubby-cheeked dog. He never did something this cutesy with Seolhwa, either.
It's trying his patience, but it's also. Nice? ]
Being with someone is better than watching them from afar.
[ Please don't think about your ex-wife, that's weird. To be fair, he's holding his face lightly, he's not actively squishing his cheeks! If anything, he seems curious to admire his features up close and being able to touch?
His thumb smooths over a brow. No furrowing. Relax, he's not gonna pinch your cheeks or anything. ]
Mmm... it really is better. [ That he says with a smile. Though his own brows knit together. Once again with the self-deprecation.... he doesn't think he deserves to be with any of them but he. Wants to. ]
[ Hello? Seolhwa was his sweetheart and he's still softer around her. Sorry. Well, Joonghyuk is more handsome than any of the purple prose Dokja has read or thought to himself. He is, after all, the real thing instead of written text on a page. ]
[ Understandable. Now he's got this nerd. It's true though, being real and seeing it for himself really does beat reading it. He blinks suddenly, looking sheepish now. ]
And you're reading me some more.
[ Oop. His gaze drops just a little, may or may not admire those features in full since when will he have an opportunity like this? Never again. This jawline, that nose, the thickness of those brows. His own long lashes flutter as he looks up at the side part of that wavy hair. But he doesn't want to poke the bear any further so he drops his hands. Even if it feels nice, it doesn't seem good for his heart? ]
Anyways, I'll be meeting with Alphinaud soon, so I should have some new information to share by tomorrow.
[ ... Actually here, all 100% of him, but it makes him sad because he's well aware that isn't the same Kim Dokja from his worldline. They're the same and they're not. It makes him think back to Secretive Plotter, envying bitterly because he didn't receive the ending he wanted. Instead, Plotter had to watch another version of him succeed.
In the end, Joonghyuk is no different, is he? He's coveting something that isn't his. He finds comfort to know that most likely this Dokja's wordline will suffer the same fate as his.
[ The corner of his eyes crinkle with mirth at that, lips still lifted in a smile. He misses the rest of his members, but he's used to being on his own for some time to deal with certain scenarios and situations. But, there's some relief at least here, Joonghyuk is as well.
He tilts his head at the inquiry before his hand raises to lightly pet that soft black hair. ]
Yeah, I'll likely stay in my room for tonight until I find some place else so, if you need me I'll be around.
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Just. Small things. [ Are they actually small though. Jin brings one of her paws to place over her own face as if embarrassed. Oof. ]
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... Does my left eyebrow really twitch?
[ Curious, but also giving Dokja a convenient exit out. ]
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I don't think anyone notices. [ Except... Dokja. ]
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The company noticed small details about you, too.
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..The kids definitely pointed some out to me. Han Sooyoung as well.
[ Carefully, a finger traces over his companion's hand, where he distantly remembers there being a scar before that is now no longer there. ]
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He tries to not make it a big deal. ]
Did you know you often mutter to yourself?
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It is not a side he expects from his companion so he's a bit mesmerized to see it. It's strange. That must be why his heart races just a bit. Right? Right.
help]..Huh? Do I?
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[ He’s still close, at this point just leaning in to rest like this. Despite the comfort in physical contact, he does say this with a tone that indicates he wants to harm him. ]
You also smile a certain self-deprecating smile when you concoct plans.
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[ Having tilted his head, being this close with their foreheads together really makes him think he's moments from being hit with a tone like that. Now his heart is racing in a different manner. scwary.]
And they [ the other members of the company ] told you that too?
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I already knew that, but yes. They mentioned it aloud... When we talked about you.
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[ His gaze drops, brows knitting a little. Guess who is mumbling now, along the lines of "I hadn't realized..." Not that it matters since they're still so close to another.
Jin still seems pleased by everything as her tail wags away- accidentally gently smacking Niah's cheek with it. Fox too hard to control. ]
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This is strange. ]
You are not the only one reading. We were reading you, too. Especially when you were gone.
[ That was when they would think back on the stories they all shared together because that was all they had left of Kim Dokja. ]
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But now? It's like it's only dawning in him and he's actually letting himself indulge in a little bit with this opportunity. Though, that he's sure must because of the effects of it. He probably wouldn't be doing this otherwise.(Someone like Dokja, he didn't deserve it.) He keeps his gaze steady on the man's face. ]
How is it? Being the reader?
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It's trying his patience, but it's also. Nice? ]
Being with someone is better than watching them from afar.
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His thumb smooths over a brow. No furrowing. Relax, he's not gonna pinch your cheeks or anything. ]
Mmm... it really is better. [ That he says with a smile. Though his own brows knit together. Once again with the self-deprecation.... he doesn't think he deserves to be with any of them but he. Wants to. ]
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You're having self-deprecating thoughts again.
[ Stop that. ]
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And you're reading me some more.
[ Oop. His gaze drops just a little, may or may not admire those features in full since when will he have an opportunity like this? Never again. This jawline, that nose, the thickness of those brows. His own long lashes flutter as he looks up at the side part of that wavy hair. But he doesn't want to poke the bear any further so he drops his hands. Even if it feels nice, it doesn't seem good for his heart? ]
Anyways, I'll be meeting with Alphinaud soon, so I should have some new information to share by tomorrow.
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[ ... Actually here, all 100% of him, but it makes him sad because he's well aware that isn't the same Kim Dokja from his worldline. They're the same and they're not. It makes him think back to Secretive Plotter, envying bitterly because he didn't receive the ending he wanted. Instead, Plotter had to watch another version of him succeed.
In the end, Joonghyuk is no different, is he? He's coveting something that isn't his. He finds comfort to know that most likely this Dokja's wordline will suffer the same fate as his.
What a disgusting feeling. ]
You'll be going?
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[ The corner of his eyes crinkle with mirth at that, lips still lifted in a smile. He misses the rest of his members, but he's used to being on his own for some time to deal with certain scenarios and situations. But, there's some relief at least here, Joonghyuk is as well.
He tilts his head at the inquiry before his hand raises to lightly pet that soft black hair. ]
Yeah, I'll likely stay in my room for tonight until I find some place else so, if you need me I'll be around.
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... All right.