[ Jokes. Joonghyuk has been awake this whole time. He opens his eyes and stares at him, though it’s difficult to see in the dark. He can at least make out his outline, can’t tell that he’s crying, though.
he lightly squeezes that hand, raising it to his cheek as he glances to the side. he was going to stay quiet but the silence is a little suffocating. so he's keeping up the sake of conversation so it doesn't deafen him. ]
I know I'm not there anymore. [ and yet he can't shake off the feeling that he is. ]
[ Gently, he draws him into an embrace, holding him carefully like the next moment Dokja could disappear into dust… Siphoned into a portal. He could just disappear.
[ Though he tenses, it's only brief, easing into the embrace as he almost buries himself into it. To feel that warmth envelop him, providing comfort that feels more than real rather than simply a thought in his mind.
He tilts his head, burying his face just a little into the crook of his companion's neck. He knows it won't be the first nightmare nor the last but. Sometimes, having something secured is enough to ground him in place.
He laughs softly, a light sound in the air. ] They get to live a more normal life, like go to school.
[ Joonghyuk closes his eyes for a bit, but he doesn't fall asleep, no. He never was one to sleep a lot, but he is rested enough to go on with his day. ]
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The shaking hand he notices. ]
A nightmare?
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He laughs a little, but it sounds wet, like he's crying or has been. ]
Yeah. ..It's just me, on the train.
[ He pulls his hand back, and sits up a little so he can try and breathe easier. ]
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... Did you want to talk a walk?
[ At this ungodly hour? ]
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No. Rather avoid running into anyone else. [ he is too tired to think of some witty excuse of why they're wandering around at this hour. ]
I'll eventually calm down. Just.. need a moment.
[ his hands are still trembling. ]
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i can't spell ]
All right.
[ But he will snake his hand into Dokja's, hold onto it tightly. ]
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he lightly squeezes that hand, raising it to his cheek as he glances to the side. he was going to stay quiet but the silence is a little suffocating. so he's keeping up the sake of conversation so it doesn't deafen him. ]
I know I'm not there anymore. [ and yet he can't shake off the feeling that he is. ]
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... You can talk about what you're looking forward to.
[ If that helps Dokja remember and cement that he isn't on the train anymore. Maybe it would cheer him up? ]
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..The holidays with everyone. [ soft clear of his throat. ] With you.
I still have a lot of shopping to do. [ which is said with a bit of a sigh. but it isn't a bad thing. having things he needs to do, get back to. ]
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[ Which is more of a couple's holiday, though he's also thinking about Chuseok. ]
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[ growing up, he mostly spent them alone. it's been... quite the experience. to the point he still has his doubts. ]
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[ It's the same for him who only had Mia, but it isn't something he dislikes. He doesn't like a large family, either.
He imagines it, like the company picnic—and it's nice. ]
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[ he leans against that hand, taking in another breath. to continue calming down. it does ground him more though. this touch, those thoughts...
it's a new future to look forward to. he may not truly deserve it in the end but, it's what he'll have. it's the life given to him. ]
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[ Gently, he draws him into an embrace, holding him carefully like the next moment Dokja could disappear into dust… Siphoned into a portal. He could just disappear.
It isn’t an overbearing hug, but it’s secure. ]
The kids would be happy.
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He tilts his head, burying his face just a little into the crook of his companion's neck. He knows it won't be the first nightmare nor the last but. Sometimes, having something secured is enough to ground him in place.
He laughs softly, a light sound in the air. ] They get to live a more normal life, like go to school.
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How are their grades?
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Pretty good. Yoo Sangah helps them a lot. [ she is reliable. ]
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[ He knows she isn't smart. ]
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Well... good enough? Yoo Sangah helps tutor her.
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[ but like he isn't sure.
Imagine Jihye in a position of authority? ]
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[ jihye in a position of authority.... um.
a hum. ] You could probably coach her. That would make her happy.
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[ He never even got to go to the military… ]
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[ TEACH HER GAMING. ]
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That's impossible.
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[ WHY NOT? ]
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[ Jihye is diligent but he thinks she’s a jock and only a jock. ]
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