Other than Baraqiel, you're the only one that knows about it. [ i should've rolled a 1. yjh doesn't deserve. this is a one-sided cuddling. but yes, it is special. ]
[ A hum. ] I did talk with Xie Lian yesterday, concerning our stories. He was worried when he saw what happened when you came back. If we happen to become targets then he knows what to look out for.
[ Of course it's the same if they are on the other side of things as well. Their stories probably won't be able to share too much but hints could be possible. ]
Hm? For what purpose?
[ He's not too sure what he means. But also, it's starting to get colder so his wings shudder a little and huddle closer for more warmth. Trying to get cozy. ]
[ Skips over all of that even though he thinks it is convenient that their blood just speaks stories. However, what they convey at whatever time isn’t to their control. It might not be helpful at all.
[ i can't believe yjh bypassed everything just to talk about this. ]
No. I haven't.
[ You seriously think he sluts up? Kim Dokja? Slutting up? The affection need is high today (stupid 20), so he's tilting his head to nuzzle against the man's shoulder. ]
[ Dokja is allowed? Niah’s tail wags a little more, but he stays where he is. Quietly, he rests his head on top of Dokja’s, but doesn’t do more than that. It is warm like this… Cozy.
Hm. ]
Is that so. We can move to one of the houses instead.
[ It’s not like they live in house 2; sucks to be those people. ]
[ Jin is a purring, happy fox all curled up against Niah. The weight encourages more, leaning into that touch with arms encircling gently around Joonghyuk's waist after a moment. Just so he can bury a bit closer.
He does consider those words though. ] ..Maybe later. I sorta wanna stay here for a bit longer.
[ Like this? And his wings are definitely blanketing them more clearly now. ]
[ Usually, Joonghyuk would pull out his sword because Dokja is touching him strangely? But, again, cuddle week is nice... And it isn't like Joonghyuk isn't aware of their mutual feelings. At least, he thinks it's mutual.
It may be allowed for now, even though he also has a feeling Dokja knows nothing. ]
You're going to be filled with shame and embarrassment when this week is over, Kim Dokja.
Then that's something for future Kim Dokja to worry about.
[ A HUFF. But also please, they're just having a nice cuddle time don't point it out to him. He'd probably shuffle or even run away IF I DIDN'T ROLL A GOD DAMN 20. :ratshake: ]
Anyways, you'll be the same.
[ How many people has Joonghyuk cuddled with he wonders? Rameel was obvious sign enough during party games to show that the expectations bar is at a low already. For some reason, he finds himself pressing a bit closer at that thought. Frown. ]
[ Technically twice now? His arms loosen from around Joonghyuk, hands raising to once again cup that face and bring them close. At least enough to settle their foreheads together. He looks to that scar again.
He tries to not frown when he feels his heart squeeze. It really wasn't like this with Baraqiel. gay thoughts ]
[ Huh...... He has never seen Dokja like this? With anyone? He has seen the man drink with Yoo Sangah and have pleasantries. It was enough for him to assume they might have been involved with each other, but nothing so flirtatious and risky like this?
It kind of pisses him off, so he gives him a headbutt. ]
[ He's not being flirtatious?! He's trying something here! He winces hard at the headbutt, eyes a little teary at the sting with his wings puffing out. ]
[ Isn't that what makes this insufferable man Kim Dokja? He opens his mouth, closes it, opens it again and- really, it's like a fish trying to remember to breathe. But he keeps his gaze focused on him till.
Quietly, ] That... I want to kiss you.
[ Again. At least this time he isn't just doing it, despite how the strong the urges for touch are today. It's a little overwhelming. He's as puzzled by this feeling as he has been for the past few days. Feeling as if suddenly he'll come to understand. Though he isn't completely sure of that just yet.
I already kissed Baraqiel. [ Brows furrow, lips pressing together as if he just remembered something. ] ..It wasn't--
[ The same. Slowly looks to the side... his wings tucking against his back. Has it been five minutes yet? If so, goodbye wings and horns. Poof they're gone. ]
[ This isn't going anywhere!! His hands are loosening against that face, dropping back onto his own lap. With his wings gone he's more aware of the cold and shivers. ]
I thought I needed physical contact to receive my ability. [ ... ] My body just reacted. I wasn't thinking.
[ Huff. ] Least they were a better kisser than the last. [ He can bully too. ]
[ Joonghyuk is practically glaring at him, trying to figure out if what Dokja says is the truth. He doesn't think he's lying... The man he knew was never intimate with anyone. Despite how much he showed others he cared is guiding them, in making sure they grow and prosper, he seldom lets people get close. He forces them away despite sacrificing himself for them.
Joonghyuk has always known there is a metaphorical barrier between people. It is what makes them individuals rather than a conglomerate conscience. Kim Dokja may have the thickest wall separating himself from everyone else. How are they supposed to reach him? How do they convey all they want to tell him?
If they wrote on that wall, will he be able to read their messages? Will he even try to understand?
...
Kim Dokja doesn't want people to see... He only knows how to love and never receive.
[ Any amusement glinting in dark eyes seems to fade, smile dips a little and he seems caught off guard by the statement. It's not a question, but a sounding statement from him. It feels.. no, it stirs something he's tried to bury back.. His heart races, throat a little dry as he swallows suddenly.
It feels as if suddenly everything he has is put on display. As though he's an open book to read, despite being so careful. But.. hasn't he been sharing a bit more and more lately? As of the past few weeks? Letting some people in, memories sharing without intending but giving him time to think back and reflect on those moments. ..He has said it once before. When you read a story again, you're able to see it at a different perspective.
As much as he loathed some memories being trudged back up, he was able to do just that. Lips press together, a shakey gaze watching his companion. Trying to figure out his intentions- "You must like that story." He grew up reading and cheered, stuck by, followed along, hated and yet loved.
When he laughs, it's a bit self-deprecating. ] What if I do- did? It doesn't matter.
[ It wouldn't mean anything. Even if he did like him, he.. no, someone like Kim Dokja? (Did he even know what it meant to like someone?) He.. did not deserve it. He doesn't after everything. It's so easy to shut down, to strengthen that wall.
He's pulling away. All that courage from earlier is disappearing fast. ]
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[ A hum. ] I did talk with Xie Lian yesterday, concerning our stories. He was worried when he saw what happened when you came back. If we happen to become targets then he knows what to look out for.
[ Of course it's the same if they are on the other side of things as well. Their stories probably won't be able to share too much but hints could be possible. ]
Hm? For what purpose?
[ He's not too sure what he means. But also, it's starting to get colder so his wings shudder a little and huddle closer for more warmth. Trying to get cozy. ]
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Still, more importantly: ]
To snuggle with someone.
[ CALLS DOKJA A SLUT ]
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No. I haven't.
[ You seriously think he sluts up? Kim Dokja? Slutting up? The affection need is high today (stupid 20), so he's tilting his head to nuzzle against the man's shoulder. ]
It's cold out, so this helps with that.
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Hm. ]
Is that so. We can move to one of the houses instead.
[ It’s not like they live in house 2; sucks to be those people. ]
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He does consider those words though. ] ..Maybe later. I sorta wanna stay here for a bit longer.
[ Like this? And his wings are definitely blanketing them more clearly now. ]
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It may be allowed for now, even though he also has a feeling Dokja knows nothing. ]
You're going to be filled with shame and embarrassment when this week is over, Kim Dokja.
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[ A HUFF. But also please, they're just having a nice cuddle time don't point it out to him. He'd probably shuffle or even run away IF I DIDN'T ROLL A GOD DAMN 20. :ratshake: ]
Anyways, you'll be the same.
[ How many people has Joonghyuk cuddled with he wonders? Rameel was obvious sign enough during party games to show that the expectations bar is at a low already. For some reason, he finds himself pressing a bit closer at that thought. Frown. ]
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I can easily put such childish emotions aside, especially because this effect is out of my control.
Unlike you, a man who overthinks more than he should. Also a man who runs after kissing someone.
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That's what you think. [ Don't tempt him to squeeze tighter. Though that last comment gets a twitch of his lips and he's. Thinking. ] I don't run.
[ AHEM. Lifts his head a little, bumping his against Joonghyuk's just lightly with a focused stare. ] I can prove it. [ !! ]
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Don't do something you'll regret.
[ STOP! BEING DUMB! ]
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It's something I've already done.
[ Technically twice now? His arms loosen from around Joonghyuk, hands raising to once again cup that face and bring them close. At least enough to settle their foreheads together. He looks to that scar again.
He tries to not frown when he feels his heart squeeze. It really wasn't like this with Baraqiel.
gay thoughts]Do you still think I'll run?
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It kind of pisses him off, so he gives him a headbutt. ]
I said to think about this seriously, Kim Dokja!
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I am thinking about it seriously!
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[ He feels like he knows Kim Dokja enough and yet the man always seems to surprise him in the worst ways. THE WORST WAYS. ]
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Quietly, ] That... I want to kiss you.
[ Again. At least this time he isn't just doing it, despite how the strong the urges for touch are today. It's a little overwhelming. He's as puzzled by this feeling as he has been for the past few days. Feeling as if suddenly he'll come to understand. Though he isn't completely sure of that just yet.
This week has been a mess. ]
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[ I am going out for birthday dinner so I can’t give the big meta, but Joonghyuk really is bullying and testing him. ]
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I already kissed Baraqiel. [ Brows furrow, lips pressing together as if he just remembered something. ] ..It wasn't--
[ The same. Slowly looks to the side... his wings tucking against his back. Has it been five minutes yet? If so, goodbye wings and horns. Poof they're gone. ]
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You kissed Baraqiel.
[ He’s digesting this. It’s kind of funny? He thinks it’s kind of funny??? But also what is happening?
You know what, he pities Baraqiel. ]
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I thought I needed physical contact to receive my ability. [ ... ] My body just reacted. I wasn't thinking.
[ Huff. ] Least they were a better kisser than the last. [ He can bully too. ]
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At least Dokja seems amused, raising a brow at his silence. Except with a shiver. It's cold. ]
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This isn't something to play around with, either.
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[ At least about this? Looks at him, his gaze flickers down briefly as he leans back against him again. ]
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Joonghyuk has always known there is a metaphorical barrier between people. It is what makes them individuals rather than a conglomerate conscience. Kim Dokja may have the thickest wall separating himself from everyone else. How are they supposed to reach him? How do they convey all they want to tell him?
If they wrote on that wall, will he be able to read their messages? Will he even try to understand?
...
Kim Dokja doesn't want people to see... He only knows how to love and never receive.
Kim Dokja hides his story. ]
Then you like me.
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[ Any amusement glinting in dark eyes seems to fade, smile dips a little and he seems caught off guard by the statement. It's not a question, but a sounding statement from him. It feels.. no, it stirs something he's tried to bury back.. His heart races, throat a little dry as he swallows suddenly.
It feels as if suddenly everything he has is put on display. As though he's an open book to read, despite being so careful. But.. hasn't he been sharing a bit more and more lately? As of the past few weeks? Letting some people in, memories sharing without intending but giving him time to think back and reflect on those moments. ..He has said it once before. When you read a story again, you're able to see it at a different perspective.
As much as he loathed some memories being trudged back up, he was able to do just that. Lips press together, a shakey gaze watching his companion. Trying to figure out his intentions- "You must like that story." He grew up reading and cheered, stuck by, followed along, hated and yet loved.
When he laughs, it's a bit self-deprecating. ] What if I do- did? It doesn't matter.
[ It wouldn't mean anything. Even if he did like him, he.. no, someone like Kim Dokja? (Did he even know what it meant to like someone?) He.. did not deserve it. He doesn't after everything. It's so easy to shut down, to strengthen that wall.
He's pulling away. All that courage from earlier is disappearing fast. ]
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